Wolf and Grizzly Rescue

 Kyle and I had the opportunity to go the Wolf and Grizzly Rescue center in West Yellowstone in April, and can I say what an amazing thing it was, we only made it in for an hour before it closed. At first I was a little upset because all the wolves were asleep, and I was like man, we just paid all this money and for what to watch them sleep? but then started to get up and move around, and that was cool, they are such graceful creatures.  Then the little grizzly cubs were out to play and boy were they adorable!  While we were watching the grizzlies play, the wolves started to howl...It was eerie, beautiful, haunting and magnificent all at once, we were even able to get video of it!  Here's a link to it https://plus.google.com/u/0/104451722895426655390/posts/cAAYcEN8D4M It's a little jumbly in the beginning and doesn't even come close to hearing it in person, but still really cool.  We asked the ranger if that was something they did everyday at about that time and he said no, that we were really lucky the wolves just howl whenever, it's a sporadic thing and they don't even howl everyday.  So that was like wow, we were really glad we went even if it was only for an hour.  Here's some pictures:

R Mountain

So I think it's been almost two months ago but we (Kirstie's family minus Bill and Mav, and David's family minus Sonja, and our family minus Sequoyah) hiked "R" Mountain! It was a lot of fun! here are some pictures from that day:

 Everyone

 Rach and Grat

 Siblings <3

 Aurora off leash! She did really well!

 Love this pic

Brothers =]

 This one too

Cousins <3

 Father & Son

 Kyle and Aurora taking a  rest at the top, it's a looooong ways up!

 At the very top!

 Me and Aurora

View from the top!

Happy little family, minus one.

  

Aurora was exhausted after that long hike!

Royalty

So today in our Family History class, I decided to see how far back I could go from my Grandma Leonelle's line, and boy was I in for treat... First I found a line of Sir's and Knights, and I was like whoa! That is SO cool! Then I kept going and found Dukes and Duchesses, then Princess's and Queen's and King's of France!!! Even the Great Charlemagne!! And the Empress of the Holy Roman Empire!!  Ahhh I am so so excited!!  I had no idea at all!! Anywho that is all =]

Some thoughts

First off I just want to give a warning this post is not meant to offend, nor is it directed toward anyone, so please do not read if you offend easily, this post is for me to get some thoughts and feelings out so please don't judge.

How to start? Well I can say I am getting increasingly bitter towards Rexburg, to the point where I absolutely HATE it here, and don't want to leave the house some days, the cause of this? Babies, they seem to be EVERYWHERE I look.  I want kids so so badly, I was content with not having kids til Kyle graduated, until last month, when I was a week late, don't worry for all those that think it incredibly foolish for us to have kids right now, I'm not.  But the emotions of that week were at first oh crap! to well maybe it wouldn't be so bad.  This is the cause of my wanting. I am also incredibly bitter towards Wilson's Disease, I hate that it rules my life, HATE it.  But at the same time it's a part of me, something that I have to accept, it's just getting hard.  It seems like almost everyone I know has a kid or two by now, or is expecting, and don't get me wrong I am happy for them, I just wish we could have that too.  I really wish I could get a glimpse into the future to know if I even can conceive,  that is one of the hardest things I think, the not knowing.  I have shed quite a few tears these last few weeks, I have been an emotional wreck.  I'm not asking for sympathy, I just needed to get this out, I'm hurting and I don't know how to fix it.  Yes I realize I am incredibly blessed, I have an amazing husband who cares deeply for me, two wonderful dogs, who love me unconditionally, and bring a lot of joy to my life. A roof over my head, food on the table, gas in our cars, etc, but that doesn't help with that desire, want, need, to be a mom.  My heart hurts to think that our children may not know Aurora and Sequoyah, or if they do possibly not for very long.
Bleh.